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There are some people in life who are perfectly content living alone and being alone.  I am not one of those people.  Maybe it was my conservative, Christian upbringing that gives me the desire to be partnered?  Maybe it’s because my parents divorced when I was only five years old?  I really don’t know.

Whatever the reason, I want to change the fact that I’ve been living like a hermit.  I want to get out and meet new people.  I have met some wonderful people in the Pittsburgh Podcast and Blogging circle and am grateful for the experiences of PodCamp Pittsburgh #1 and #2.

I have one regret in life, leaving a now ex-boyfriend.  It was the most stupid thing to do.  We made a great couple and I was happy at the time.  Unfortunately, I didn’t know that I loved him.  I think a lot of it was to do with the fact that I just didn’t understand love at the time.  Love can be a very powerful thing and I now know what I did love him.

Part of my depression is in no doubt caused by my loneliness. I need to fix that ASAP.  Maybe it will make me feel better (I’m not just talking sex here.).  Think about it!  How do YOU feel being alone.  It’s scary to see a fat version of me in the mirror, knowing that I don’t even find myself attractive.  The moral of the story is this: I want to take leaps and bounds from my current place in life, but that isn’t going to happen.  I need to take things one day at a time and make incremental changes to get to my goal.  The bitch is practicing what you preach…

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