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I dunno. The last several years have not been easy. I’ve moved yet again, I’ve lost and gained more weight than I care to admit, and I’ve changed jobs a few times. So, you say, “What’s the big deal, bitch?” Once upon a time… I was happy… about 22 or 23 years ago. My depression has spiraled downhill from that point. The technical terms are the following: Major Depressive Disorder, Dysthymic Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

What does that have to do with the last few years? Well, it means that I’ve got issues upon issues. Luckily, with the miracle of modern psychiatry, I have many of my anxiety issues under control. Depression is the bitch. It keeps me chained to the couch and in the apartment with outings to the grocery store and work. Lately, things have been a little better. I’ve been getting out more, but not on my own. People have to ask to get me the hell out of the apartment. Sure, we all have our issues. I’ll be continuing this in a multi-part series.

We can’t always control our lives.  I truly believe that some issues are caused by they way the chemicals in our brains work.  I can’t control these things on my own.  Crazy I’m not.  I want to be an uber productive member of society.  I want to be able to get my ass off of the couch and onto the treadmill.  Unfortunately, that isn’t happening right now.  I’m working on it.  Just think, with the right care and in the right state of mind I would be podcasting much more frequently.  It’s coming, but we still have a ways to go.

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